When you sell something, you have to be physically prepared for anything that goes your way. There’s no running portion of the buying/selling transaction, however in case things get dicey, you should know your escape routes. I bought a retro computer from someone and his wife had cautioned him about selling, to which he told her that if things got dicey, he’d just let the buyer [me] have it and run. Didn’t happen; coulda happened.
I haven’t been able to row consistently in weeks since these headaches have controlled most facets of my health, so I’ve had to learn to moderate my calorie consumption so I don’t become too overweight. Last year, I started counting calories, and burned off a noticeable amount of weight. Before the New Year, I started graphing out the common foods I eat along with their contents to see if they’re good for me or not.
The biggest trap I fall into when it comes to the diet portion of diet and exercise, under the health and wellness umbrella, is accountability. Given the option, I would eat constantly, and excessively. That’s not too bad when the calories out [exercise] are more than the calories in [diet], but when it’s not, it becomes an unbalanced system. I’ve been struggling to figure out an accurate way to count my calories. I’ve found something…
Looking back on this past year, I drop fourteen pounds. Last year’s resolution, if you will, was to stop eating so much “fast food” – heavily processed foods with abundant calories, excessive sugars, and other badness. I have mostly succeeded there. When I’ve increased my weight, it’s because I’ve been inattentive to calorie counting, which I started in May. When I’ve decreased my weight, it’s because I’ve counted calories. What is my fitness resolution? Keep counting!
‘I’m tired of all these headaches, debilitating or casual.’ That’s what I thought about when I thought about this season of gift-giving, superfluous consumerism, of waste and wanton pleasures materialistic, and all the greed therein. I have everything I need. Except for reliable, stable health. I could be going about my day, whether writing or driving, and feel a pang that stops me in my tracks. I’d like those gone more than videogames or socks…
It’s been six days since I last rowed. Now that whatever was causing those mindbender headaches has stopped, and my health has normalized itself, I feel ready to get back on and row again. I’ll start slow, but I’ll start again. Despite seeming easier, not exercising just leads me down paths of overindulgence, binge-eating, and finding suboptimal ways of dealing with life’s stresses. I feel sluggish. I feel unhealthy and weighed down physically and mentally.
It was nearly two weeks since I last rowed. Somewhere along the way, during my writing of A Story About Self-Confidence: What’s In A Name?, a month~long story at Eville Medical in the Sammohini Arc of “The Story,” I picked up disparately severe headaches, some disquietingly lasting several days or weeks. I felt the subtlest pangs of tension against my neck and spine rowing just now, but where’s the gain without pain? Well, right there.