[Rowing Machine] 2018: Week 29 {232.5}

I face my fears during every rowing set. Sometimes, it’s nothing dramatic; just investing time into moving my limbs around. Usually, I’ll focus subconsciously on some internal turmoil along with routes through that. If it was one awkward conversation, I might ruminate about how much I care about future similar awkwardnesses. If it’s addressing some lingering stress, I’ll gather up the courage to face it down. We should often practice these sorts of fear staredowns.

 

My Weekly Stats

Monday 9th
Row #1: 4:30 minutes, 32.5 SPM (strokes per minute), 789 meters, 150 rows. Too many lingering frustrations this morning to ease into a calm, morning set with a focus on stretching and waking my muscles up. Everyone has shit they deal with. You’re not special. I’m not either. Ask for help, shut up, do it, don’t, then move on. Don’t dwell.
Row #2: Skipped
Wii Fit: 0 minutes
Push-ups: 2
Jogs: 0 seconds (stationary), 30+ seconds (in motion)
Bonus: 2 hours of walking, 4-8 hours of walking around the office.
Sleep: 6 hours

Tuesday 10th
Row #1: 5 minutes, 32 SPM, 926 meters, 175 rows. I don’t always explain why I skip a set when I do, but I always take note that I do, so I can find the “why.” Overwhelming fatigue, not properly addressed, was it. Taking the day off to recuperate. Should be fine tonight. I’m already feeling better.
Row #2: 5 minutes, 46 SPM, 1128 meters, 201 rows!! My best set yet! Nothing particularly different about the set. Maybe it was because today was a day of complete physical rest, catching up on chores, and not having a single worry? If that’s the formula for success, how can I replicate that? Detach from all stress?
Wii Fit: 0 minutes
Push-ups: 0
Jogs: 0 seconds (stationary), 0 seconds (in motion)
Bonus: No additional exercise.
Sleep: 8+ hours

Wednesday 11th
Row #1: 5 minutes, 32 SPM, 810 meters, 150 rows. My nausea and headache from yesterday are back, but at least the 50-pound weight of fatigue is somewhere, off in the distance, perhaps ready to strike, but hopefully not. Ugh. At least I can do my best and try to do as much as I can, in moderation.
Row #2: 5:08, 40 SPM, 1086 meters, 200 rows. I went a little over to make sure I hit 200, and man, if there were ever a time for that, it’d be my second over 200 rows set in two days! I haven’t been rowing with my arms much at all, mainly legs, so I’ll have to balance that out more. Guess it’s how I learned?
Wii Fit: 2 minutes [Triangle]
Push-ups: 2… barely
Jogs: 0 seconds (stationary), 5 seconds (in motion)
Bonus: 2 hours of walking, 4-8 hours of walking around the office.
Sleep: 7 hours

Thursday 12th
Row #1: 5 minutes, 28.5 SPM, 869 meters, 126 rows. For every victory, the next goal must be bigger. If I can occasionally reach 200 rows in 5 minutes, how can I do it more consistently? My arms might be slowing me down, so in these morning sets, I’ll focus on using my arms more. Fuller strokes and longer drives?
Row #2: 5 minutes, 37.5 SPM, 1099 meters, 180 rows. I had a great run from 18 to 86, then my body gave out. I struggled to 96, then 100, clawed my way back until I was back in form, at 130. The 90-second I just did before this set wiped me out! Fortunately, my fitness discipline kicked in and I recovered quickly!
Wii Fit: 2 minutes [Triangle]
Push-ups: 0
Jogs: 0 seconds (stationary), multiple 5-second jogs (in motion)
Bonus: 2 hours of walking, 4-8 hours of walking around the office.
Sleep: 5 hours

Friday 13th
Row #1: 5 minutes, 33 SPM, 890 meters, 139 rows. More arm form practice. My lower back was hurting yesterday afternoon at work. I might have been rowing with my back too much. I’ve always found this tricky, and end up keeping my back straight, so I don’t end up hurting myself. Or, I was sitting weirdly at work…
Row #2: 5 minutes, 44 SPM, 1015 meters, 202 rows. How quickly once lofty goals become normalized. It took me since March of last year to get 200 rows in 5 minutes, now, I can do it easily. As easy as sweating profusely gets, but still, I’m not exhausted and I just used my biceps more; hands under the bar paid off!
Wii Fit: 0 minutes
Push-ups: 0
Jogs: 0 seconds (stationary), multiple 5-second jogs (in motion)
Bonus: 2 hours of walking, 4-8 hours of walking around the office.
Sleep: 5 hours

Saturday 14th
Row #1: 5:05 minutes, 37 SPM, 947 meters, 156 rows. I wasn’t motivated to put in my best effort today, which happens occasionally. I’ll troll through Twitter to read about the latest outrages while sitting on my machine, and after about 10 minutes, I’ll snap out of it. I’m feeling tired today. Maybe I’ve overheated?
Row #2: Three different “sets.” 2 minutes of approaching power before defeat. Regrouped. 3 minutes of reattempting to reclaim that glory. I may have. And for the fun of statistics, 10 strong rows since a customer at work says he likes to aim for a calorie per stroke. I’m not quite there yet…
Wii Fit: 0 minutes
Push-ups: 0
Jogs: 0 seconds (stationary), 0 seconds (in motion)
Bonus: No additional exercise
Sleep: 7 hours

Sunday 15th
Row #1: 5 minutes, 39 SPM, 949 meters, 174 rows. So much for that light morning set idea… although, this was therapeutic, because you ever get into one of those deep psychological thoughts mid-set where you start to address a root problem? That happened here, so I kept going harder as I dug deeper into that.
Row #2: 5 minutes, 39 SPM, 1086 meters, 178 rows. It’s too hot to work out well.
Wii Fit: 0 minutes
Push-ups: 0
Jogs: 0 seconds (stationary), 0 seconds (in motion)
Bonus: No additional exercise.
Sleep: 6 hours

Stats And Stuff

Weight
232.5 pounds: down 3.0 pounds from 235.5 pounds!

Liquids
(Note: My goal is 1 gallon of water per day. One liter is 0.26417 gallons.)
Monday: 4.9 liters (1.3 gallons) of water, 1.75 liters of coffee
Tuesday: 7.6 liters (2.0 gallons) of water, 1.5 liters of coffee
Wednesday: 4.9 liters (1.3 gallons) of water, 1.5 liters of coffee, 1 cup of orange juice
Thursday: 4.9 liters (1.3 gallons) of water, 1.75 liters of coffee
Friday: 4.9 liters (1.3 gallons) of water, 2.0 liters of coffee
Saturday: 7.8 liters (2.0 gallons) of water, 1.5 liters of coffee
Sunday: 7.8 liters (2.0 gallons) of water, 1.5 liters of coffee

Vitamins12 of 14
(I take: Multivitamin; Calcium, Magnesium, Zinc; Fish Oil; Vitamin C; Vitamin D; and Vitamin E.)
– Got home Monday evening exhausted. I skipped my rowing set (intentionally) and my vitamins (unintentionally)! The more trending data I can capture about myself over stuff like this, where I lose motivation or forget trending patterns, the more I can self-diagnose and determine that it’s not wise to push harder.
– I left out my vitamin glass as a reminder for Saturday evening, but due to increasing stress throughout the day, I ended up forgetting. I knocked over the glass in the morning and instantly knew what I’d forgotten. Good thing these are all optional vitamins to help my health, otherwise…
– Crap. Forgot about my vitamins on Sunday evening. When I forget, I like to ask myself why I did. Other than forgetting to leave the vitamins out for me to take, maybe it was doing too much, and not leaving enough time to refill my vitamins and think about them?

Rowing Machine Maintenance
– Check bolts: yes
– Clean seat: yes
– Lube chain: yes

Aspiring Toward Goals

Last Week’s Goals:
Weight  [232.5 pounds]: [succeeded] Down three pounds is quite an accomplishment for me! If you look over my weight chart, though, it’s all over the place. It’s been a stressful week for me, which is where my weight becomes unyieldly. Part of the stress might be the bio-physicality of not eating enough, though, too…
Consistency: [neutral] On the surface, everything was fine, but underneath I was having a rough time keeping up with everything – as indicated most apparently by my number of Wii Fit sets and push-up counts. I still don’t have a great space for attempting push-ups, so it feels awkward each time I try.
Health: [neutral] I would have given myself a failure here, but the thing is, much of this is because I have trouble saying no to people, so I’ll overextend myself, get frustrated mentally or physically exhausted, which only hurts me in the long run. (I had to call out sick on Tuesday.)

This Week’s Goals:
Weight: No weight gain. I don’t think it’s the quality of food I eat, it’s that I eat too much. If I’m a little hungry, I’ll overeat everything. Portion control is the name of this game, so I’ll need to focus on buying stuff I can split up or eat moderately.
Consistency: Starting next week, I’m renaming the “Decompressing From Stress” section to “Decompressing Disquietudes, Dude,” and really trying to focus on detaching from those moments that aren’t allowing me to be quiet. The dude part was the first alliterative word that came to mind, but it’s not about using chemical decompressants.
Health: I’ve been letting my bedtime slip, especially after switching to an earlier sleep schedule. It’ll work soon. My idea: wake up to write/edit, go about my day, arrive back home, and instead of bum around online half-exhausted for hours like some kind of digital vagabond, go almost directly to bed.

Future Fitness Plans
I might have decent pull strength from the rowing bar, but otherwise, my emaciated arms definitely don’t look like I’ve been rowing for over one year. I need to work on this. Push-ups will be a good start, then trying out more arm stretches/exercises, including focusing on my arm form.

Random Fitness Topics

From Good to Better
Finding time and motivation to row used to be difficult. During my first two months of getting back into rowing, I’d have to psyche myself up to row. After all, I’d rather be doing nothing. So I wrote about rowing. Now, it’s part of my routines, like bathing or shaving.

Sober Living
I think there’s a natural aversion to facing what’s uncomfortable. I face discomforts daily, between my rowing and my sobrieties, which honestly does leave some people thinking I’m abrasive. Unless the uncomfortable thing is something innocent or menial, I can’t let things fester into something worse, so I face them.

Confronting Cortisol Circumstances
Usually, facing those fears happens like this: I identify a problem, I come up with enough of a desire to need to change it, then I figure out what needs to happen. If it’s a difficult conversation, I think of the general structure, then I find the time to speak.

Decompressing From Stress
Those confrontations are always draining, whether subtly in terms of just needing to take a long break or complete day-wasters where you just can’t do anything after facing that fear. Reward yourself after dredging through the depths of your fears. In time, it’ll become easier, and you’ll do it faster.

Wii Fit Highlights
Obliging myself to at least one stretch is a good minimum goal. After realizing my arm strength is terrible, I’ll have to start doing more push-ups and arm stretches. I haven’t tried more available stretches because my Wii Fit area is in, essentially, a dirty garage. I should move it.

A Nice Outro
I’m making good progress on all fronts. I just need to keep disciplining myself, especially in taking breaks. “[In my line of work], we don’t often have fixed breaks. It’s more often when there’s a lull or we can find time to escape.” Maybe it’s because it’s hard breaking rhythm?

Endtable:
Quotes: None
Sources: My fitness experiences.
Inspirations: A recent conversation that culminated in me realizing that part of why I’m so comfortable facing my fears is because, well, I face them to some degree in every set.
Related: Past weekly column entries.
Pictures:
Above: Colossus in a bag of scrap e-waste, almost as though he were afraid, but Colossus isn’t into being afraid.
Below: None
Wii Fit Stats: Weight and BMI
Written On: July 9th, 11th, 12th, 15th
Last Edited: July 15th
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Author: Zombiepaper (Anthony)

My big goal is to write. My important goal is to write "The Story." My proudest moment is the most recent time I overcame a fear, which should have been today. I'm a better zombie than I was yesterday. Let's strive to be better everyday. (Avatar)

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