I have this quote hanging out with my writing tablet: “A day I have not written, is a day I have wasted.” I’ve wasted many days in the past. ‘I’ll get around to it tomorrow.’ ‘I don’t have enough time to write, row, or do what I want to do.’ ‘If I put time into doing anything, I’ll be tired tomorrow.’ All’s true. It’s all about understanding one’s limits and breaking them without breaking yourself.
I don’t have much time.
Maybe fifteen minutes to write before I should get to bed to maintain a reasonable schedule. I’ll probably push it. I should be fine tomorrow (Wednesday) it’s just I’ll probably be wiped out by Friday, when this publishes, unless I figure out ways to make this schedule sustainable. How can I? All of my time is sucked up. No matter what I do, I can’t mentally or physically break away from it. I’m stuck in this vortex until it’s over.
That’s the victim mentality and what prevents us from doing what we want.
We get so wrapped up in what we need to do to survive, and wrap so much of our egos around the simple act of going through the motions in order to survive, that we look for quick escapes. I read four pages of reddit “for motivation.” It wasn’t. I was hoping to find that mental escape from the grind to take my mind off not knowing what to write. I was subconsciously ashamed for not putting in any time to writing today.
I nearly skipped today. I’ve been skipping more rowing sets lately…
It’s not OK to do that. Same with writing. If I write 1500 words occasionally, I can balance my present with my future, right? Well, no. That’s not sustainable. So I, like all of you toward your future goals, have to be willing to know where your limitations for stress and health are and push it as close to that boundary as possible to get what you want out of life. When you do that enough, you become confident that you can get what you want.
Otherwise, you humbly go through life expecting leisure to arrive for free.
When you’ve banged on enough doors, eventually, you’ll start getting people gravitating toward you. By then, you may have already built up enough self-confidence in your skills to know when ‘good enough is good enough’ or when you need to put in your best efforts. Not everything deserves your fullest attention. Sometimes, it’s just fine to some let things slide, especially if getting everything absolutely right will cause you to unwind due to stress.
What’s important is holding yourself accountable.
When you know you’ve done the best that the work requires, then you can proceed with pride. Like this writing. I put together the rough draft in 12 minutes and edited for another 10 minutes. It’s untidy; it’s good enough.
It’s what I could do within my limitations to avoid wasting today.
How have you worked toward tomorrow?