What I always found most appealing about Goblin Slayer, and what I like about the movie, subtitled Goblin’s Crown, is how it deals with trauma. The world of Goblin Slayer is overly violent compared to most anime, and yet compared to the lives of some, it’s about as realistic as it gets. When Goblin Slayer slays goblins, he does so without any pleasure. To him, it’s a moralistic duty, however amoral it is or appears.
Around every two weeks, there’s an art contest in ENDLESS WAR. I [co-]won the last one, which was featuring characters as they might appear on the leaderboards, with bonus points given for using the leaderboard in-game. This contest is about food and food vendors. What people liked about my entries is that they added to the lore through emic additions of new elements. Why not add in new lore related to possibly new Ghost/Staydead vendors?
Ever just get a bad feeling about how something will go, so then you act decisively, even if it seems counterintuitive? I’d been scheduled for an injection of some chemical or another into my spine for two months now. They were never clear what it was. I asked via their email form four times. No reply, when normally they’d call me same-day. When I canceled, they called, with the name of the medication; reluctantly, hesitantly.
After winning the contest in ENDLESS WAR, I gained some degree of social respect and recognition within the community, as might be expected from contributing art and culture to a community that has deep amounts of lore. It’s a wonderful feeling to be part of a group of people that are all talented in their own right, whether in art, the gameplay itself, or even just being good people, and being accepted within that community.
If you consider the pain of dealing with your health condition, consider having about twice the tolerance dealing with your insurance. These people are making it twice as difficult as it needs to be for me. I suppose at least I am making progress, but it is not through their help or guidance at all. If it were up to them, I would be waiting around for months. My spine might not have that long…
“I am so sorry to hear about the pain and the struggle it has caused you – it has clearly been life altering.” While I’ve been stuck in the second-opinion stages, where a doctor remotely reviews my case and considers whether or not [my life has value] my spine needs surgery, I’ve reflected on some things… I own two good rowing machines. Will I ever be able to use either one again to their fullest capacities?
And now I must wait for the two or so weeks before I get an expert opinion to decide how my case will go. I received a generic message going over all of the information just now. It’s all fairly straightforward, so instead, I’ll paste in my response below and write about my feelings, because it’s been tough these past few days, especially. I’ve lost a lot of strength. I have no appetite. Motivation: decreasing…
I ended up making five entries to the leaderboard contest in ENDLESS WAR. I drew one so quickly that I had actually forgotten I submitted it, even though it received plenty of positive reaction. I missed it during the livestream, so when I watched it later, although there were parts I wish I would have commented on, overall, I’m happy enough that it got a good reaction because I’m learning to follow my amusements more.
In ENDLESS WAR, when you join a team, Killer or Rowdy, you have a communicator channel to strategize where you’re going to do this or that. When you abstain from those as a Ghost/Staydead, well, we still have a communicator channel, but ours is called The Losers Club. For a contest about the leaderboard, I imagined it as a breakroom one might have in an office where those of us who’ve abstained instead hang out.
We tend to think of the arts as disparate industries because their results are different. When I write essays, I use words. When I draw, I use colorful pixels on a screen. The same could be said for any industry – programming, music, or even mathematics – but once you can think about what you want to have happen in your media of choice, it’s a matter of spending the time plotting the way to get there.