The nice thing about writing plan for “The Story” now, compared to two years ago, is that I could have some additional hours more per week of near-dedicated research, by way of doing recordings of various topics. Meandering through the idea of how Trishna’s family would store medical records got me thinking deeply about the need to have that information for disabled people, like me, like Trishna, and how research and consultations factor in, too.
It feels good to have reassessed some things about my life, starting with my rent renewal. I will renew the apartment-mansion lease for a 6-month premium. I’m OK with this only if I hold myself accountable to at least trying to work on moving out, downsizing, and otherwise selling what is necessary to make the move after that 6-month extension more affordable, or, if not, I can stay in the apartment-mansion for a 12-month renewal.
There are two ways you can deal with pain-  you can ignore it or blame others for it, or,  you can do as much as you can to fix the issue. I fought for most of today against how my pain clinic has been treating me. It was a wild tale with some weird paths. I didn’t record the calls, but I did a recording talking about the events at length, and I feel better.
I lost four days of moving momentum because of my health. A lot of that time was basically spent mourning the progress that had been stolen away from me so suddenly, but I used that energy to research and figure out alternate solutions, so now I can press on ahead. I did, too, with a renewed sense about my videogame store, and made some social and maybe more importantly music reviewing attachment or detachment development…
It was good talking about moving, downsizing, and selling in this week’s episode of the Semi-Interactive Podcast, but I can’t help feeling sad that my healthcare is not in a good enough condition to where I can legitimately consider my moving plans. I might be forced to stay in this apartment for another 6 months, at least, as I wait for my health to improve well enough to move out, which is frustrating but acceptable, probably.
I believe now the true strength of video-recording my research related to my healthcare lies in how I have to speak through my own experiences. Reading materials is useful, but reading them out verbally, interpreting the details, and taking notes, live, is more important than generating content or whatever. I can show people my thought processes through which I learn and ask myself “what kind of things can I ask my doctor about my health?”
I had plans to do some things that were derailed by my health. It’s the same story I’ve been telling for years now, but this time, I could speak it into a microphone while doing research. This two-parter isn’t the nicest thing to listen to, but my story is not a proud one for the American Healthcare System. I have to fight for my right to get the treatment one should assume is a given.
I’ve been starting to get passionate about recording various forms of content, almost more than my writing passion, but I realized that’s only because brainstorming for “The Story” is inherently difficult. There’s nothing pinned down. It’s all conjecture, but brainstorming through ideas is how I can eventually get to the point where I can write it, so, I built the recording space to talk about “The Story” more and I think that will help significantly.
Spoilers?: Minor [brainstorming in chunks]
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I made some progress, but not much, because honestly I am feeling overwhelmed by the process of moving out. My physical health has declined in the momentum that I felt in the days after my healthcare event. I took my first mid-day nap today after a week of not napping; I don’t think things are declining, but, I don’t feel as rambunctious today as I might have shortly after feeling better. Tomorrow should be better…
This essay and its accompanying video aren’t about Japanese videogame clothes, but they are about things that are tied into all three concepts. I was successfully able to make two donation trips, and even more successfully, I was able to do those trips after getting my car worked on, which did not ruin my physicality enough to push me back home immediately. That was nice! This all is, then, a celebration of progress toward moving!